went to group today

didn't know what to say

so i was silent.

the quiet disturbed everyone else

they were uneasy and rigid in their seats

i just sat there saying all the nothings

i could think.

why so many words?

why so many opinions?

why do i have to choose a side?

i choose silence so i can balance my insides.

when my turn was up

there was a relief that filled the room

mad overlapping and rapid sighs

why the hell did you do that to us? they asked.

i said nothing

sat still

i could feel eyes, anger, vibes of danger

filling my body

but it felt good to let go of that expectation

to have witty, penetrating insights to share.

i took back my voice

and stared into their fiery mirrors.